Sunday, September 11, 2011
Can We Ever Really Forgive, Forget, and Move On???
At this point I feel like the answer to that question is no but I really hope we can.
In our lives we are all bound to make mistakes, that's just life. But the size and magnitude of those mistakes are what differ between person to person. I'm pretty sure my mistakes aren't up there with the crazy murdering psycho people but mine are more extreme then the occasional white liar. Every single one of us have our moments and for me it's been quite a few. The biggest thing that comes away from our mistakes we make is disappointment. We become disappointed in ourselves and those around us especially, the ones who love us or are close to us, begin to be also. It's at this point where we lose trust, friendships, respect, and even our reputations. Can we ever get them back? Sure we can't change the way things were or go back in time but can we rebuild or regain the things we lost. Things will never be the same again but they can be better can't they? I really hope and believe they do. I made some mistakes of my own that lost me an important friendship, relationship, trust from my parents, and the respect and view people had for me. I had changed and not for the better. When all was lost or in my case, "gone completely down the crapper", what could I do? I had hit in some peoples eyes rock bottom and the only place to go from there was up. It takes a humbling experience to realize that you were wrong, you'd made a mistake, you've disappointed people and yourself, and that you need to change.
So I changed and am still changing. That was the only thing I could do. I had to dig myself out of the hole I had gotten myself into. So I had to decide which direction I wanted to go with my life. I had to figure what I needed to do to get myself to a better place. I made goals. I changed the things I did, habits I had made, the people I included in my life, and finally my outlook on life, people, and myself. I come across and have come across to many as being on a high horse and it wasn't until I got bucked off and received my reality check that I knew I couldn't be the person to judge anything or anyone anymore because it wasn't my place. I was certainly not perfect. And you get a new perspective when you're the one who's being judged or held accountable.
It's a sucky feeling when you go against things you've been adamant on your whole life with yourself and others and you get into a "pot calling the kettle black" situation. It's not fun believe me. But there's one thing that I think goes hand in hand with change and that's repentance. It's making amends with yourself, God, and those you've hurt in the process. Its saying And making sure that it doesn't happen again. It's restitution. It's resolution. It's change.
The change though for the most part is the easiest though. It's being forgiven by others and yourself that ultimately take the most time. Sometimes you're too far gone with some people and sometimes you get another chance but why can't things go back to the way they were? If you're trying, if I'm trying, so hard at changing and moving on and learning from the mistakes that have been made why can't your respect, trust, and attitude go back to the way they were or even be better? It's up to you. You and I can only go so far. It's up to the other person to meet you half way. I think I've forgiven, forgotten, and moved on. Have you? Can you?
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